Showing posts with label meditation. Show all posts
Showing posts with label meditation. Show all posts
Sunday, December 9, 2012
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
The pause...
Never have I heard you speak.
And yet I do know your voice.
A vague memory of the future
Lurks within me like a thief.
I listen, listen and listen
And I grow weary of the wait.
And in my madness I can hear
Voices spilling from the rocks.
But I do know what they are,
I know that you are silent.
And then I hear it - the pause!
The pause before you speak.
No sound yet, but the pause!
A silence as loud as a roar.
I know this pause is eternal.
I know you will never speak.
And yet, I am ecstatic...
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Raindrop
Like a drop of rain falling
Through the wide open sky
I fall through you in silence
And watch emptiness go by.
I fell in love with you one day
And even today I fall
Who knows where I shall land or if
I shall land at all.
Where I might land some day
It does not seem to matter
A drop is a drop while it falls
When it lands... it's water!
Through the wide open sky
I fall through you in silence
And watch emptiness go by.
I fell in love with you one day
And even today I fall
Who knows where I shall land or if
I shall land at all.
Where I might land some day
It does not seem to matter
A drop is a drop while it falls
When it lands... it's water!
*****
No, I have not fallen in love with a woman or anything like that!
A conversation I had a couple of days back led me to the issue of being in trust. It is a remarkably tricky state to achieve. I am certainly not talking about trusting God or trusting fate or anything hocus-pocus like that. Imaginary props like that may bring some solace, but there is nothing wonderful about fooling yourself. I am talking about moving into trust for no reason at all. It is a very peculiar state of being and to touch it even for a moment is truly intoxicating. This is not about mental or emotional gymnastics - it is a completely different state of consciousness.
In a discourse during the consecration of the Linga Bhairavi Temple, Sadhguru talked about moving consciously into a state of trust.
"... I am not talking about belief. I am talking about moving into trust. So, how can I trust? The fact that you are sitting here comfortably (or not!) - that's trust. Because, you know there have been incidents where the Earth has opened up and swallowed people. There have been incidents where pieces of sky have fallen and people have been crushed to death. There have been situations - the very air that you breath has turned against you.... So you are anyway trustful... unconsciously. You are trustful unconsciously, unlovingly. I am talking about being trustful consciously, lovingly. That's devotion... Devotion is not fantasy. Devotion is not a belief system. Devotion is the sweetest way to be in existence."
It is could be very easy for someone to misunderstand what he is saying and think that he is talking about devotion to God. But he is not talking about trusting something you don't know. He is just talking about trusting existence. That does not mean that he is talking about believing that "everything is going to be fine in the future" - that would just self-deception. He is talking about just plain trust - based on nothing, demanding nothing. He is talking about trust that is rooted in the present, it is not concerned about the future. He is talking about falling in love with existence. He is talking about becoming a raindrop.
Falling in love with existence is very different from falling in love with a person. Falling in love with a person involves a lot of emotional nonsense. Falling in love with existence is meditation.
Sunday, July 1, 2012
Drunkenness and Creativity
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| Drunk on half a drop... |
People have said a great deal about the connection between meditation and creativity. I have only half a drop of meditation in my life. So perhaps I am not really qualified to speak about this, but I am going to say a few things anyway since that half drop has been enough to get me drunk. And when people get drunk, they start talking recklessly, don't they? Can't be helped. They can't be blamed for it. Blame the one who gets them drunk.
People think that meditation relaxes the mind by silencing it which makes it creative simply because the it starts seeing things that were hidden by the clouds of chaos. While this is essentially correct, it is a little too simplistic, too easy to misinterpret. And the reason for that is that typically, we do not have any idea about the incredible depths of relaxation that are possible. I certainly do not claim to have experienced those depths in their entirety. And what little I have experienced has certainly not been because of my own efforts. I have simply been fortunate enough to have caught that half a drop from the fountain of Silence.
To be able to step out of the well-beaten paths of everyday thought, one has to first stop walking on those paths. Creativity is the ability to create something genuinely new. For something to be genuinely new, it cannot be born out of just a superficial reorganization of what one already has - it must be born out of absolutely nothing. It must emerge from the void, from Silence. Then surely it stands to reason that for the phenomenon of true creation to happen through us, we must first step into Silence.
From my own meagre experience, I would like to say (not that I have any right to say such things, but I am drunk!) that what happens in Silence is far more than the simplistic explanation that I have mentioned above.
Silence has a life of its own, an intelligence of its own.
So then can one employ meditation to become more creative in the arts, sciences and all the other nonsense that we indulge in? I would say - no, that is not how it will work. One cannot enter Silence with a motive. Motives are loud things. One must leave them behind before one can enter Silence. And then one can only wait in the womb of Silence for new things to be born. Sometimes they may be the things that we are looking for, sometimes they may be something entirely different. All we can do is allow them to manifest through us. The Silence lives on its own terms. We can only allow it to live through us. As it is, what it has much more to offer that we can ever ask for. So it is no loss to leave our little demands behind. They will be satisfied in ways we can never think of (we are just not creative enough on our own).
All we can do is be drunk, even if it is on just half a drop! All we can do is offer ourselves to the magnificence of Silence, to its glorious creativity.
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Falling
The fool who stares at the Sun
Knowing that he may lose his eyes
May one day see the blessed land
That beyond the darkness lies.
The fool who gladly leaps off cliffs
Knowing well that he may die
May one day sprout golden wings
And inherit the open sky.
*****
For years, I have had a rather peculiar experience at times and it is only recently that I have begun to understand what it is. At times, it so happened that I began to listen to a song and was so overwhelmed by its beauty that I had to stop listening to it. And there were times when I was reading a book and was so overwhelmed by what it was saying that I had to close it. Peculiar though this may be, I am sure it is not entirely unique. Everyone must have experienced something like this now and then. There is, of course, no way to engineer such an experience. The same song, the same book may not reproduce such an experience again.
It is only now that I am beginning to understand what a wonderful opportunity such an experience is. The only reason why we are compelled to "break the moment" in such a situation is because we are about to hit a glorious peak of energy where the mind is bound to fail, where it would have no option but to become silent. The mind tries to salvage its nonsense in such situations by running away. But if we were to not fall prey to such foolishness, something wonderful can open up.
There is a beautiful madman called Swami Rajneesh who, it seems, teaches his followers to take their energies to a peak through dance and to find those golden moments of absolute stillness at those heights. Well, it seems that sometimes even when we are not physically dancing, those peaks can come to us as gifts from existence. Those unbearably beautiful songs should be listened to. Those terribly beautiful books must not be closed. And at those moments when we are so deliriously happy that we cannot bear to be still... those are the moments when we should sit still and allow the madness to overwhelm us. These Great Waves are not meant to be avoided. We should ride them, for there is every chance that they might toss us so high into the sky that we may never return. They might toss us so high, that we might forget which way is down... and then we might just fall upwards.
It is only now that I am beginning to understand what a wonderful opportunity such an experience is. The only reason why we are compelled to "break the moment" in such a situation is because we are about to hit a glorious peak of energy where the mind is bound to fail, where it would have no option but to become silent. The mind tries to salvage its nonsense in such situations by running away. But if we were to not fall prey to such foolishness, something wonderful can open up.
There is a beautiful madman called Swami Rajneesh who, it seems, teaches his followers to take their energies to a peak through dance and to find those golden moments of absolute stillness at those heights. Well, it seems that sometimes even when we are not physically dancing, those peaks can come to us as gifts from existence. Those unbearably beautiful songs should be listened to. Those terribly beautiful books must not be closed. And at those moments when we are so deliriously happy that we cannot bear to be still... those are the moments when we should sit still and allow the madness to overwhelm us. These Great Waves are not meant to be avoided. We should ride them, for there is every chance that they might toss us so high into the sky that we may never return. They might toss us so high, that we might forget which way is down... and then we might just fall upwards.
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